Sometimes i think this thing called emotions has a tremendous effect on us. It is actually considered God's gift to us. If not for it, this world will be so boring, void of feelings. Emotions add colour to all the mundane things we go through each day. But emotions is such a complicated thing. Sometimes i feel i dont know how to handle my own emotions. Sometimes i find it difficult to hide how i feel, difficult to control how i feel. Sometimes i feel this thing called emotions takes control over me and i cant think properly. It overtakes me, overrides my senses and my rationality. And i wonder why God gave me this gift and not teach me how to use it properly. But i know the answer. The key lies in something called self-control-- one of the fruit of the Spirit.

" But the fruit of the Spirit is love, joy, peace, gentleness, self-control. Against such there is no law. "
-2 Corinthians 5:22-23

But self-control is so hard. Temptations are everywhere. All around. I may win this battle but my defence falls short and i lose the next battle. The fall is always painful. Some more painful than others, but still painful. It's like our parents will ask us not to do this not to do that cos they wanna protect us. But the forbidden always attracts. And only after the fall that we realise our parents were right. After the fall then will we run back to our parents for comfort. I always run back to God when i fall. He chides but He comforts too. I tell myself the next time i'll only listen to God, I'll not fall for another temptation. But it happens again. Haha.. What to do? We're weak. He's strong. Im just glad im not alone in this long and tough journey.

Despite the negativities of this thing called emotions, i thank God for it. Can you imagine a world without emotions? It'll be just black and white. So no life. He's giving us lessons everyday. I'll just learn slowly. One day i'll master this thing called emotions. One day i'll be the one controlling it. One day...