Dear God,

I think I'm shrinking further and further from You. To be honest, it is a struggle walking this journey. Sometimes I just feel so weary. It is like what they call 'the spirit is willing but the flesh is not'.

Every battle seems tougher than the previous one. And there are just times when I feel so inadequate, so disappointed with myself, because I can't live up to Your standards. In every down and dry period, I'm always so tempted to just give up. I think to myself, "when are all these going to end?" I know I simply can't go through the obstacles by my own strength. I know I need Your help so badly. Yet all these are just head knowledge. No doubt, I've experienced Your grace and power, and each experience leaves me amazed, but why do I always forget? I sing songs declaring my love and awe for You, and yet what I do and say simply doesn't reflect what I sing. It leaves me feeling hypocritical.

I feel listless and empty each time I stray from Your side. I'm sure You know better than I do, how I miss being so close to You.

It is a promise, a commitment I made to You, on that day when I decided to grab Your hands. I don't want to let go. Really. So dear God, will You help me? Will You promise me, that even when i loosen my grip, even when I give up, You will never give up on me? Please keep me going until the day I see You.

Thank you, Lord.

Love, Yvonne





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