A little late but HAPPY CNY to all!! Haha.. We went to Hanshen's, Singhwa's and Joel's places today. Joy (Joel's dog) is so so adorable! She has this innocent look. Her eyes especially. She's so playful and her fur is so soft. She's super huggable. I wish she's mine. Imagine hugging her to sleep. Haha.. >.< I love Joy! :D

Actually this post is sort of contentless. Haha.. I just felt like writing something. But what i wrote about Joy is really how i feel. No wonder they say dogs are a man's best friend. They might not be able to communicate but i believe they can feel what you're feeling. And they'll just stay there by your side. Sometimes certain things you simply cant tell anyone, certain feelings you just dont know how to express it. Well of course God is the exception cos whether or not you tell Him, He already knows. And when you feel like there's no one else you can talk to, there it is-- your dog will be there to listen. So thank God for dogs! (:





I once had it. Or i thought i had it. But it was a dream. And now it is time to wake up. It's ok. At least it was a sweet dream. (:

The stars are dim tonight. The clouds are covering them. But we know the stars are always there, whether they are visible or not. We just have to wait for the clouds to go away.

God is so amazing. He created something so pretty. Looking at the stars in the sky and the things around me, just enjoying His presence and all the things He has made, i feel peaceful. Spending time with God and talking to Him makes me feel so much better. I can cry in front of Him. i dont have to put on a mask before Him. Sometimes i wish He can just take me away, away from this complicated world; to a place where things are simple, where there's only Him and me. He's the only one who truly understands. It gets tiring to have to fight the battles day after day. Thank God He is always there and He will give me all the strength and courage that i need. (:

Sometimes i think this thing called emotions has a tremendous effect on us. It is actually considered God's gift to us. If not for it, this world will be so boring, void of feelings. Emotions add colour to all the mundane things we go through each day. But emotions is such a complicated thing. Sometimes i feel i dont know how to handle my own emotions. Sometimes i find it difficult to hide how i feel, difficult to control how i feel. Sometimes i feel this thing called emotions takes control over me and i cant think properly. It overtakes me, overrides my senses and my rationality. And i wonder why God gave me this gift and not teach me how to use it properly. But i know the answer. The key lies in something called self-control-- one of the fruit of the Spirit.

" But the fruit of the Spirit is love, joy, peace, gentleness, self-control. Against such there is no law. "
-2 Corinthians 5:22-23

But self-control is so hard. Temptations are everywhere. All around. I may win this battle but my defence falls short and i lose the next battle. The fall is always painful. Some more painful than others, but still painful. It's like our parents will ask us not to do this not to do that cos they wanna protect us. But the forbidden always attracts. And only after the fall that we realise our parents were right. After the fall then will we run back to our parents for comfort. I always run back to God when i fall. He chides but He comforts too. I tell myself the next time i'll only listen to God, I'll not fall for another temptation. But it happens again. Haha.. What to do? We're weak. He's strong. Im just glad im not alone in this long and tough journey.

Despite the negativities of this thing called emotions, i thank God for it. Can you imagine a world without emotions? It'll be just black and white. So no life. He's giving us lessons everyday. I'll just learn slowly. One day i'll master this thing called emotions. One day i'll be the one controlling it. One day...

The past week or so has been.. wow! Haha.. I mean things happened. All i can say is God has been so good, so faithful and He never fails to amaze me. You know what? God is involved. He's always poking His nose in our businesses. Every little detail, every dark corners. He knows and He's interested. You find it hard to believe that, cos you think He has so much to do, so many people to attend, to He may have missed you out? I understand that feeling. I felt that way too. But trust me. God knows. And He's totally interested in you. I can't explain how i feel in words. God always makes me feel so overwhelmed cos He's so big and im so small. Im just so glad that i have someone so great and sovereign to cover me, protect me, lead me, counsel me, everything.. When you realise how tiny you are and how huge He is, you know how honoured we are that He cares so much, that we matter so much to Him.

" For this God is our God for ever and ever; he will be our guide even to the end."
-Psalm 48:14

" Love is patient, love is kind. It does not envy, it does not boast, it is not proud. It does not dishonour others, it is not self-seeking, it is not easily angered, it keeps no record of wrongs. Love does not delight in evil but rejoices with the truth. It always protects, always trusts, always hopes, always perseveres."
-1 Corinthians 13:4-7

What more can i say? The bible says it all about love. I hope to honour God and protect those i love at the same time. Pray that these verses speak to different individuals accordingly. (:





You are headed in the right direction when you walk with God.

Hello! It's been a few days. Haha.. Well my christmas and new year was a blast! Spent time with the people i love though plans were last minute and things dont always go according to plans. Lol. But well, thank God for the wonderful time! (: It was my brother's birthday yesterday and church people came to our house for the celebration on sunday. I think God is so good cos i really enjoy myself with this big family that He has given me. I think i sound super incoherent but i dont care. Haha..

School's started and well.. It's still going alright. Just that i have a difficult time paying attention in class. :p And i really hate the timing for this week cos the schedule for this first week is like 1530 to 1830. It's like peak hour and traffic is so slow! It feels forever for me to reach home and when i finally do reach home im already starved like no one's business. Oh well, lessons will be back to 1400 to 1700 from next week so.. Yays! :D

Anyway, i came across this verse while doing qt on Saturday (3/1/09):

" Blessed are those who have regard for the weak; the Lord delivers them in times of trouble."
-Psalm 41:1

I was kind of convicted by this verse cos i thought of Sr when i read it. It feels like God is asking me to show her more christian love. But it's so so super duper difficult! >.< Uncle Edward once mentioned that christian love is an action, not a feeling. I find the feeling part tough but the action part is as tough! Im trying trying trying.. Just that sometimes i really cant help myself. Pray that God help us all to love one another as He called us to in this verse:

" My command is this: Love each other as i have loved you."
-John 15:12

Another thing is, I know that God has great and amazing plans for all of us. Wonder why sometimes we still feel so terrible? True, sometimes it might be the trials that God set for us to go through so that we learn something and grow, but sometimes i think it is because of our lack of discipline and obedience that we are not able to taste the blessings He wants us to have. I think all of us have to make a marked effort to draw closer to Him and to listen to Him. Now what i need is really patience, patience and more patience! I may want something really badly now but i know it's not God's timing yet. I must wait wait wait and see His exciting plan for me unfold. >.<

" " For i know the plans i have for you," declared the Lord, " plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future." "
-Jeremiah 29:11





Joy joy joy... Joy to the world, the Lord has come... (: