For the first time, I felt real rejection. The working world is practical. I guess everything is about gains and benefits. Once I lose value to them, I dont get even the chance to speak. Im out.

But luckily I regained composure the next day. And I continue to strive. With His strength and encouragement.

And today, my hopes and confidence are crushed once more. Im still standing, still able to go on. Im just wondering, how long can I last like that? Having my hopes, confidence and motivation crushed and then persuading myself to look forward again. This cycle. I know it's not going to end anytime soon. It may even last forever.

Thank God. He reminded me, that I have Him to lean on. He will not let me go through things I cannot take. And a close friend's prayer today reminded me too, that God will always provide a way for me. Indeed, rough times make me realise how much I need to rely on God's faithfulness, grace and mercy.

Im unhappy. But I know this will pass and things will get better soon. Just cry my heart out to Him now. Tomorrow will be a better day.