I am in love. Yes. In love.
With my King.
I understand how i am 'the apple of His eye' now. (:

An excerpt from Captivating (authored by John and Stasi Eldredge):


There is a scene near the end of the film Anna and the King I wish I could play for you. Let me describe it.
The setting is nineteenth-century Siam, a tiny but beautiful Asian country still in the grips of its ancient past. Anna, an English woman living in Siam as a tutor to the king's many offspring, has helped King Mangkut prepare for a state dinner. He wants to show the British that his country is ready to enter into the affairs of the world, so the dinner is given in the English style-- silverware, tablecloths, candlelight, and, at the end of the meal, ballroom dancing.
When the feast is over and it comes time for the first dance, the king stands and extends his hand to Anna. He invites her to dance with him. He fixes his gaze upon her and is distracted by nothing and no one else. He waits for her response. She is clearly surprised, taken aback, but has the grace to respond and stand. As they walk past the long table, the king's eyes never stray from hers, a smile playing on his lips. Others are upset that he has chosen her. Some watch with contempt, others with pleasure. It is of no consequence to the king or to Anna.
Anna came to the ball prepared. She was beautiful in a striking gown that shimmered like starlight. She spent hours getting herself ready-- her hair, her dress, her heart. As they reach the dance floor, Anna expresses her fear of dancing with the King before the eyes of others. "We wouldn't want to end up in a heap," she says. His answer to her questioning heart? "I am King. I will lead."
Jesus is extending his hand to you. He is inviting you to dance with him. He asks, "May I have this dance... every day of your life?" His gaze is fixed on you. He is captivated by your beauty. He is smiling. He cares nothing of the opinion of others. He is standing. He will lead. He waits for your response.

My lover spoke and said to me,
"Arise, my darling,
my beautiful one, and come with me." (Song 2:10)

Is it just me, or am i rocking on a damaged boat? The boat seems to be defected and it feels like we're sinking. Helpless. That is just the word to depict how i feel now. We are in need of someone to repair the sinking boat before it is too late. Desperately in need.

We all know just who to look for. Him.

We are familiar with the story of how Jesus calmed the storm in Mark 4:35-41.

"He got up, rebuked the wind and said to the waves, "Quiet! Be still!" Then the wind died down and it was completely calm. He said to his disciples, "Why are you so afraid? Do you still have no faith?" "
-Mark 4:39-40

Here is the catch. We are to be in a partnership with Him. Be it handing Him the spanner, or wiping sweat from His brows, there is work for everyone. He has the expertise. He knows exactly what to do. All we have to do, is to listen, obey, and most importantly, believe.

Will we do that? Will we wake up? Will we sweep away the fear and get down to work? Will we partner Him?

beauty - a combination of qualities that give pleasure to the senses (esp to the eye or ear) or to the mind

That was the definition given by the Oxford dictionary.

What is beauty when seen through
(i) the world's perspective?
(ii) God's perspective?

What is your definition of beauty?

Imagine you are on a boat that is rocking in the middle of a storm. Or that you are on the roller coaster with sharp bends on the tracks and steep downslopes. You feel so feeble, so vulnerable. You feel as if you may be flung overboard anytime. You want to cling on tightly to something. Anything. Just to keep yourself on board. Oh, the insecurity! How you long to cast it away!

There are probably times like that in life. When you feel so confused and messed up. Temptations, inferiority, self pity, crossroads...etc. Everything that comes at you all at once, making you feel at a loss. In these times, you just want to toss away everything and cling unto Him. Because you trust Him, you know He will sort out the chaos.

That was what i thought when i feel like im lost in the whirl of the tornados-- that im the one clinging on tightly to Him. But a small voice nudged me. The voice told me that in fact, He is the one who is holding on to me so very tightly. I dont realise it because i couldnt see the big picture. I can only see my hands clutching on to Him, so tightly my knuckles are turning white. Zooming out, i see it. I see that i am in His embrace. And it looks impossible for me to be flung out into the storm because He is so strong, and i am so sheltered in those protective arms. (: